Author: TheLonelyCanadianDownUnder

Rather than talk about the bad things in my life right now like my job, I want to talk about what my year of change has done to my confidence. Let’s start with my fitness. I started going to the gym twice a week just to get fit. Then later in the year I started… Continue reading Confidence

And just like that, the musical is over. Eight shows, two of them were sellouts along with being mostly sold for the rest. What now? It was one of the best experiences of my life. So much fun and the show was absolutely amazing. The cast and crew were all great. Why does it have… Continue reading What Now?

Hard to believe it has been over six months since I started this blog. Apologies to anyone who reads my posts regularly, but I need a bit of a timeout. As my psychologist recently said to me, it’s okay to not do things as often when I’m busy. Our local musical opens in 10 days.… Continue reading Timeout

Finally found it. After years of being halfway across the world from my family and friends in Canada and being so alone with such low self esteem, I found something recently. Whenever I’m at rehearsal for the upcoming musical, it feels like home. As anyone that’s read my blog knows, there has been a lot… Continue reading Feels Like Home

This year I’ve really tried to be the best version of myself. It isn’t an easy thing to do, but I think I’m slowly getting there. Just attended a conference for work this past week. The content was mostly boring, except for a couple of sessions about mental health and wellbeing. There was also a… Continue reading The Best Version of Myself

I have always tended to keep my emotions in check, especially around other people. Maybe that is what prevents me from making close friends. Anger and sadness are two emotions that I really don’t show to anyone normally. They bottle up inside me, since there isn’t anyone to talk to about it. I know it’s… Continue reading Emotions

Do you ever feel like you are living someone else’s life? I definitely feel like that… One different life decision might have changed it all. My dreams have not come true. I know it’s my own fault. A decision was made to marry someone I barely knew. She was from halfway across the world. Then… Continue reading Living Someone Else’s Life

Sometimes letting go can be a good thing for your mental health. I’m talking about letting go of feelings of guilt and worry, but also maybe stopping some things in my life that make me too busy. With my recent stresses and worries, my IBS symptoms have been a lot worse. So I decided to… Continue reading Letting Go

One of my favorite songs is ”OK Not To Be OK” by Marshmello and Demi Lovato. Over the last few years, I really wish someone would have said that to me… On a particular day this past week, I hit breaking point. With everything that’s been happening lately, I felt like I couldn’t be at… Continue reading OK Not To Be OK

They say everything happens for a reason. I’m really trying to believe that today after getting some disappointing career news. As anyone who has read my blog knows, my dream has always been to be an actor. But that always played second fiddle to real life and the career path I went down. When I… Continue reading Everything Happens for a Reason