So much keeps happening to me and now that I have more friends, I thought I would have more opportunities to talk about it. But no, I am still so alone.
2025 is not my year so far. Not sure why I deserve everything that has happened to me in the last couple months. I try so hard to be a good person. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not all doom and gloom. Having fun with rehearsals for the next musical and got cast in a new play later in the year which is essentially Shakespeare in the Park.
I desperately want to talk some of this out with my friends, but it just hasn’t happened. One guy won’t even reply to my messages most of the time and I thought he was my closest friend. And he even knows that I’m going through a rough time. Other people say they are here for me, but when I try to catch up with them, it doesn’t work out. Guess I’m still so alone.
It has been nearly two years since I’ve visited my family and friends in Canada and I usually try to go back every 18 months or so. But I don’t think I’ll get an opportunity this year with everything going on here. And I’m starting to feel like I really need to see them.
Work sucks, my finances could be better, and there’s been a bit going on with my health. My daughter’s anxiety has been worse again lately and my son is becoming a broody teenager. My ex has been difficult to deal with and I even finally defended myself in a long text message to her.
The dating apps have been reactivated, but of course that hasn’t helped. There’s literally nothing happening for me in the relationship department and I can’t see it happening anytime soon.
My life has been really busy too. I haven’t had much relaxing time and also haven’t been sleeping well. There’s not one day every week where I can just get home from work and relax for a bit.
I’ve tried so hard to get myself out there and meet new people, make new friends. I feel like that’s gone so well, but yet where are they when I need them? Even my friends in Canada haven’t been in touch. No matter what I do, I’m still so alone.