Eighteen months of making big changes to my life and more changes on their way; I can finally feel it. Good things are coming my way…
In the last few days, my stress levels have been higher than usual due to financial strains. I just had an expensive trip back home to Canada to see my family and friends. There’s been a bunch of extra expenses too and I’m taking my kids away next week for a couple days. But that stress hasn’t affected me like it has in the past. I’ve been working so hard to improve my life and I just know it’s going to pay off.
Let’s recap my life over the past few years. Separated nearly five years ago, living on the other side of the world from family and friends besides my kids, and went through the pandemic. I was depressed and lonely until I made changes such as going to the gym, doing yoga, and writing this blog. There has been a big career change and I finally love my job. I’m doing what I love by getting involved with the local arts council and their musical productions. I feel like I’m finally making some friends to actually hang out with once in a while.
After never singing before, I started lessons last year and really enjoy it. I know I’ve improved so much and just performed at my teacher’s showcase for her students. The song I did was Castle on the Hill by Ed Sheeran and everyone seemed to love it. And I’ve been working on all the songs from the next musical they are doing for the past couple months. My plan is to audition for the lead role. Good things are coming, I know it.
My kids see how much happier I am and feel like I’m inspiring them too. Our time together is so much better than before. I’m seeing a specialist for my IBS to try something different. And my plan is to quit smoking by the end of this year, maybe even in the next few weeks. It sounds like I’ll get a promotion and a pay rise at work before the end of the year.
Good things are coming and it’s not because I sat around waiting for them. I’ve worked so hard on myself over the past eighteen months. It hasn’t been easy to keep motivated sometimes but I knew it would pay off eventually. Maybe I can achieve my dreams. My confidence is higher than ever and I feel like I deserve happiness. It might be time to stop feeling lonely…