No matter how happy anyone is, there are still tough times. Life is about ups and downs and some days are hard.
Last year was such a massive year of change for me. Finally started figuring out who I was through motivation and just putting myself out there. My self confidence is higher than it’s ever been and my financial situation has dramatically improved. My kids are the most amazing little people and I couldn’t be any prouder of them.
But as we come to the end of January, my feelings have been all over the place this month. For example, my new job is going really well. My boss keeps telling me what great work I’m doing and it’s so much better than my last one. Yet I find myself feeling grumpy at work and looking forward to the end of the day. Maybe some days are hard…
It probably doesn’t help that my IBS has been really terrible so far this year. Actually affecting my daily life regularly. And it’s so frustrating because I’ve tried so many new things to help with it. Starting to worry that this will negatively impact meeting more people and even finding someone special. Who would want to be with someone that spends most of their mornings on the toilet?
I know I’m so lucky compared to a lot of people in this world. There could be worse things going on in my life. So why do these feelings such as unhappiness and loneliness keep coming up? Could just be that some days are hard.
Need to keep reminding myself of the amazing things in my life. Like my kids, my friends and family in Canada, my new job, my involvement in local theatre. Our strength comes from dealing with those bad days. And those days could just be that you feel terrible physically like I do today or the supermarket didn’t have the main things I needed. Or they could be days that you deal with things like your child’s anxiety or your own loneliness. Just have to keep pushing on. This is what life is all about.